I don't know where to start

[nathnic]

Once, a long, long time ago, I used to post to another journalling site quite a bit. People I interacted with frequently all stopped posting for their own reasons and I felt lost and alone. And then I stopped posting.

I still read over there, but see no reason to post. So why a new journal, with a new name?

The easy way out is to say it's viridescence's fault, because when she announced she'd be permanently moving here I commented on a post in I don't know how many years (but it's at least four or five). We immediately started PM-ing and it truly felt like re-connecting with an old friend (which is absolutely true).

Things have happened in the last year that I'm still working through. I'm keeping an old fashioned written journal, but maybe writing things down here will help me. It'll definitely be good to properly re-connect.

The story of 2017 will follow later, when I'm up to writing the most of it down - there are things that can't be put into words.

Oh I don't know - I'm rambling...

Anyway, I've made this post public, but all of my other posts will be locked because this is a RL journal. However, I like meeting new (and old) friends. So, if you feel like it, come say hi.

Comments

[viridescence]

If nothing else comes from my permanent move to Dreamwidth than connecting with you, it will be more than worth it.

♥♥♥♥♥

[nathnic]

Oh absolutely! It's a sign of true friendship when it feels like yesterday when in fact it's been years. This is making my very happy! <3!

[viridescence]

I agree 100%! In some ways the last few years have been very lonely, and since I reconnected with you a few days ago, that feeling has lessened dramatically.

One thing I've learned recently is that self-care is important, and social/emotional self-care is a big part of that. Friendship helps so very much. ♥!

[nathnic]

When everybody left I really did feel lonely and lost. So yay! for reconnecting.

To have a support system (be it in RL or online - preferably both) is SO important.

[viridescence]

Definitely. I know that from experience now, and while I can't do anything right now about an RL friends group wherever I end up moving for work, I can try to re-establish an online friends group now. I know that when I move again, I'll be overwhelmed and in culture-shock again, but having learned this lesson from my time in Pittsburgh, I won't allow myself to lose track of my online friends again when I need them the most. I frankly don't care about having "followers" or getting likes and kudos on fic (and I care even less about being a "fandom name"); I'm much more interested in genuine interaction with people I care about and with whom I have shared interests. So a real friends circle is what I'm shooting for now.

[nathnic]

In the end that's what sticks. Fandom fame is nice and all, but will only go so far, as I've found out...

[viridescence]

Yes, very true.